Zurich was a strange city. I was there 3 days and made a solid attempt to enjoy the city itself. It's hard to know whether a city disagrees with you, or if you disagree with a city. It's even harder when you are so socially inept as I am. I wanted to make the most of Zurich, I want to meet people, learn about how the people live there, but I end up meeting noone.
The excuse in this case I made was that I was travelling with family and my partner, but really should that stop me from meeting new people? Perhaps I would not have met new people on my own. Meeting and maintaining relationships has become so difficult to me, partially based on distrust, but a complete lack of knowing how to connect with others. If I meet someone, I know I will never be one of their "real" friends, and the thought of being some guy they met makes me nervous to persue anything deeper. It's stupid, because truly I know I should just be more confident, and perhaps I will try employ this more, but it is hard to remember.
Zurich Apartments
With this, I visited Zurich with my family but met noone from Zurich, apart from one nice bloke in the gondola up to Flumersberg, Gary, who procured scientific equipment for his company and was about to retire. Since he was about to retire, he took the week off to go hiking around the mountain since the whether was so good. He seemed happy and content, and was doing it alone. I think it would be good to end up like Gary.
Grossmunster
I ate so much fondue I threw up (literally). But some part of me felt like the location was not happy with us being there, and we were disturbing it's serenity and quiet. I think if visiting Switzerland, you should visit nature. Flumserberg was the highlight of the journey.
Lake Zurich
However walking around town with my younger brother was also very memorable. We found charlamagne in the crypt under Grossmunster, and this led to us listening all about Charlamagne later in the Rest is History podcast, which gave a memorable backdrop to later parts of the trip. My brother is a close friend, and so is my cousin. It's sad to spend time apart from them. Again, perhaps if I can foster friendships with them, it shouldn't be too hard to do with others.
Zurich Tram
I am hoping to write more, however awful the above is - a pure stream of my increasingly stupid mind that lacks any sense of tragic beauty - to maybe improve my clarity of thought. We'll see if it does anything of the like, but for now I'm happy to just put shit out there and hope for the best.